Random Ramblings

It has been eons ago since I last updated my blog (and the "eon" bit was partially a pun) :p

For those who didn't know YET, I have a new job (a 3-month old new job), in a stakeholder relations firm (to know what the heck that means, visit our site). Yes, I have crossed the fence, from publishing to public relations.

It has been a rollercoaster ride, I must say. It's stressful, fun, and very educational. And though I have received the culture shock of my 22-year existence, I am grateful for everything that happened. Heck, I can even say I'm happy, for "there is nothing better than for man to rejoice in his work; for this is his lot" (Eccl 3:22) I still believe that I was placed here for a purpose, a purpose that is yet to be revealed.

But heck, I have a nine-to-six work hour, wherein I arrive at the office before nine and leave way past after six. No, I am not yet a candidate for W.A. (Workaholics Anonymous) but give or take a few more years I might just be. (I am TOTALLY kidding.)

This new work is humbling, for most part. Humbling for it made me realize how much I do not know. It also made me realize a new level of submission to authority. It also took me out of my comfort zone (literally and figuratively). I never realized how 'pampered' I was back in the magazine, how relaxed the atmosphere was, until I got in the firm. Though those two industries don't differ much, it's the culture that's worlds apart.

In moments of weakness I tend to long for the past, thinking how good things WERE when I should be looking forward and moving on.

I also miss the routine I've had when I still living within Quezon City. It was a perfect triangle: home, office, ECR. But the habit was broken, and now I (or rather, the Lord) is dealing with my schedule.

I miss my friends. I actually miss having two jeepney rides, getting off in front of St. Luke’s, riding the trike to the gate of Rolling Hills Village and walking the dark roads to #51 10th St. every Mondays and Tuesdays, and first Wednesdays monthly. I miss hanging out with my KG sisters and my friends in community, the worship, the teachings, the laughter and the silly times after TR, hanging out by Lucille’s quaint stall, walking from ECR to the village gate.

And all the Lord has been telling me is wait… and wait in silence (am I such a loudmouth?! :p)

He’s also telling me something else, which my puny human mind can’t quite comprehend yet. It’s big, I’m quite afraid of it, should my hunch be true. I am asking for prayers: for clarity of mind, for wisdom and understanding.

Meanwhile…

Just do what I’m supposed to do. Continue with the race (or is it a fight?). Whichever it is, I am confident that I am not alone in it.

Oh yeah, I know how Joel Houston looks when he’s NOT looking like a yagit na magsasaka: really H-O-T-T *wink wink*

Video Post - The Freedom We Know

The current song stuck in my head, now with visuals :D From the "Mighty to Save" album :) My favorite-est track in the album ;)You'll see why :D

Real Friendship

Friendship. A term that over time has lost its meaning, or has been misused so liberally you don't know what it really means anymore. Shall we limit ourselves to the dictionary meaning:

Individuals in a friendship relationship will seek out each other's company and exhibit mutually helping behaviour.

What is true friendship? What is real friendship?

I believe it is

… when they go out of their way to be with you in times of sorrow

… when they know you’ve made a mistake and yet not blurt out I TOLD YOU SO’s in every other sentence

… instead they comfort you and make you feel that you’ve been forgiven and that you have another chance of making it better next time around

… when they choose to be your friends not because of your status or position, or what you can give them, but for who you are

… when they text you or call you up not because they need something from you but because they want to talk to you

… when they tell you if there’s something wrong with you, and tell it to your face, instead of making you feel like you have a very contagious disease and not talk at all

… when they will stick up for you whenever you need them

… when they manage to see past your façade and see you for who you are and accept that over the former

… when you can approach them, ask them to pray for you, and you can be damn well sure that you’ll be prayed for

… when something good comes your way, they will be genuinely happy for you

… NOT when people become your “friend” only because you can do/give something for them

… when you’re down and out, they’ll pick you up and help you pick up the pieces

… NOT trample on you more and rub it in your nose that you did something wrong

… when they don’t call you “friend” just for the sake of adding another name to their “friends list”

… when they value you as a person, not just another number in the statistic

… when they see you wearing a frown, and they do all they can to turn it upside-down, even though they would look really silly or really stupid

… when you know, deep inside of you, that you can trust them with your life, and you know that they will be there to catch you.

This is for the guys and gals who showed me what real friendship is all about. It’s not about the number of friends that you have, but the number of times you spend with the people you care about. You know who you are… and I love you guys.

For the rest of you… you can learn a thing or two from this.

Goodbye

I love you.

That's what I wanted to say, but alas, circumstances doesn't agree with me. Now I must bid adieu, for I believe it's the right thing to do now.

Thank you for all the things you've done for and to me, albeit most of them you did unwittingly. I have become a better person because of you. And most importantly, I've grown to closer to God because of you (yes, you helped, trust me).

I know I have hurt you in the past, and I am really sorry for that, and I ask that you forgive me. But I have been hurt, too, but I take it as my 'pruning stage'.

If you need a friend, I am here for you. Don't hesitate to call on me. I wish you all the best. May you have a fun life.

God bless.

A promise I hold on to

No man will ever claim you unless he claims you from Me. For I reserved a man for you, who has My heart and loves Me even more than he will love you. For I won't give you unless he asks for you from Me. He's asleep, don't wake him. He's busy for Me, for My Kingdom. Soon you will know him, but in My perfect timing. you're my princess, My daughter. Let NO prince claim you unless he asks for you from My Hand, for I am your Father, the King of Kings. You, My princess, are worth waiting for. I love you. - Jesus

Elaine, my friend and KG sister, texted this to us single girls in our community. I pray that all the single girls who get to read this will hold on to the same promise. Remember, we are princessess; we deserve nothing but the best.